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[chenqing_player]

[Wei Wuxian has dbated about sending a message ever since waking up from the dream he just had. He knows it is a memory. He can tel the difference between those and normal one by now. But this time..he wakes up feeling more frightened then he has in a long time.]

Has anyone else had a memory that showed themselves dying? Because I'm pretty sure I just did.

I've seen death in my memories before. A lot of of it actually. But never..my own.

I was just wondering if anyone else has had to deal with that kind of a memory.

[He is greatly unnerved by it. Which is why he isn't showing his face or using video like he normally would.]

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[temptationaccomplished]

[Fell realizes the this may not be a problem he has to face, given what he apparently IS. It feels a little unfair to be spared that, when so many suffer through death. Maybe he shouldn't even comment, since he can offer no reassurances or support, but the young man asked.]

I'm sorry. I can't say that I have.

[chenqing_player]

I wouldn't wish it on anyone..so I am glad you haven't.

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[serpentinthegarden]

You actually saw your own death? And you remember it?

[ Anthony paused to frown over his cell phone. He couldn't remember anything like that. The worst for him was the Fall and what happened afterwards... Hell wasn't a very nice sort of place. ]

What was it like?

[bearshermark]

For while, I thought I'd died in one of mine, but I found out later that my injuries were mended.

I'm sorry your memories have been so terrible.

[chenqing_player]

It wasn't..pleasant.

Apparently I chose to kill myself by throwing myself off a cliff. I could feel myself falling and then it was just..nothingness.

[chenqing_player]

I think death might be all I really knew in my past life. It doesn't seem like it was a very peaceful time.

I'm pretty sure this wasn't something I was going to get mended from. Unless you know a lot of survivors who throw themselves off cliffs.

[bearshermark]

Yeah, I've done that twice in my past life. Only once on purpose. I was lucky to have some divine blessing that probably saved me before I died, though. That's the only way I could have survived.

Maybe you could have, too? Only your future memories can tell.

[serpentinthegarden]

At least you don't remember hitting the ground. The landings are the roughest part...

You know why it ended up that way?

[chenqing_player]

Based on what I've seen in other memories, I think that was the night I was using a lot of the spirits to hurt people..and the night my sister was killed.

[So seems like he had a lot of regrets. And based on the feelings he felt at the time he clearly had a lot of darkness inside of him.]

[chenqing_player]

It would be nice if you were right...or maybe it wouldn't be. Pretty sure I wanted to die so that I could stop hurting people. I don't think divine blessings come to those that are evil.

[Which is kind of the feeling he has been getting based on his memories..that he is the big bad that everyone hates.]

[serpentinthegarden]

Something like that can mess a person up.

[ The ultimate decision to jump, grime though it was, made sense after all the death and destruction he must have seen. ]

You're not still feeling that way? Should I come down and lock you in your room for a while?

[bearshermark]

If you wanted to stop hurting people, I wonder if you really were evil after all?

[chenqing_player]

Thanks but I don't think I'll be heading to the roof any time soon. You don't have to worry too much about me.

There was..like a darkness inside me. I could feel it like it was taking control of me. I don't have that here and I think its because I don't have those powers.

[chenqing_player]

I could feel a darkness..like it wanted to consume me from the inside. I think I was trying to not give into the evil inside of me.

[serpentinthegarden]

Good cause the roof is my terrace. Would't mind if you borrowed the Jacuzzi but I'd hate to have to tackle you before you went over the side.

A darkness? Not like a demon?

[chenqing_player]

I don't think it was a demon. It just felt like power. Like something was trying to wrap around my heart and mind.

[serpentinthegarden]

It sounds corrupting whatever it was. Give us the heads up if you start feeling that creeping in again?

[chenqing_player]

Yeah..definitely. If I do then you might want to consider locking me in my room at that time.

I guess I have another reason to not want these powers back.

[serpentinthegarden]

Like you needed another one. Couldn't you have been content with all the other bad reasons?

[chenqing_player]

Go big or go home right? I've always been the kind of person to go over the top. Guess that now includes bad powers and craziness.

[serpentinthegarden]

If you've got to go, then go with style? I like that.

[chenqing_player]

Exactly. Though I bet I would make one dashing super villain.

[serpentinthegarden]

You would! The super heroes wouldn't know how to handle you.

[consortofalderaan]

I suppose if these are memories of another life, we will all experience a memory of something like that, won't we?

[chenqing_player]

I guess I was hoping that part of our memories would be omitted as a kind of courtesy.