text; about 3am the night before the soiree

[howkickassiam]

God, y'all weren't kidding about the whole getting your memories back thing

It's enough to make me want to go on down to TX again to avoid this

I don't even know who she is, but I can tell from the way the memory went

I loved her so much

And at the end I just decided to let her go

I let her go

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[chenqing_player]

Are you okay?

Do you need anything?

I've been through some rough ones myself so I understand.

[howkickassiam]

Not real sure I'm okay

Not real sure I'll be okay ever again

[ There's a pause and then: ]

I don't know if I need anything

[chenqing_player]

Don't think I won't come over there.

I am not afraid to show up on your doorstep with some strong drinks and a willingness to hug away the sad.

[he needed a distraction last time he had a memory, he is willing to offer the same if the other wants it.]

[howkickassiam]

Dude, I am as drunk as a ducking drunk

Not ducking. Damn phone

And I meant skunk up there

[chenqing_player]

[He is glad this is text because now he's cracking up.]

You already started without me? Cruel.

Offer of the hug still stands. You know I give good ones.

[howkickassiam]

I'd like that. And there's a 24 hour bagel shop next door if you want to get something there for breakfast later

[chenqing_player]

You got it. Me and the bagels will be there in record time.

[He's already dressed and heading out the door.]

[howkickassiam]

Thanks, Xian

[ In the time it takes for Xian to get to his place, he drinks some water to try to sober up a little. It doesn't really take, though, and he ends up slumped at one of his kitchen chairs, clutching his glass, which is on the table. ]

[chenqing_player]

[With bagels in hand, he knocks on the door..wondering if he should just go in just in case the man is passed out on the floor. But he'll give it a minute before he tries the door.]

[howkickassiam]

"Come in!" he calls, though it comes out more like "m'in!"

[ashenscipher]

It is odd, is it not? Feeling the emotions from another life.

[howkickassiam]

I mean, that's what I thought when I got the first one. "Huh, weird." Like that.

This one was like a punch to the gut

[ashenscipher]

It seems more like we are experiencing two lives at the same time.

[howkickassiam]

It's starting to

I don't like it

[ashenscipher]

There are people like this in my memories, too.

People I have strong feelings about, but I don't know at all.

Maybe you will get more memories of this woman?

[howkickassiam]

I hope so. It wouldn't make much sense otherwise. You know?

[ashenscipher]

It would not. But maybe we should all prepare for nonsense at some point.

[howkickassiam]

If she's as big a deal in that other life as this memory led me to believe, that's gotta happen. I really just don't see it otherwise.

[ashenscipher]

Then at least you will get the closure of learning who she is.

[howkickassiam]

Eh, I guess. That's better than nothing, it's just that...I mean, if she's that important to me over there, am I not going to end up just missing her for the rest of my life?

text ; sometime in the morning when the sun rises

[inquiryguqin]

What happened?

I'm curious. A memory came back to you?

text ; mid-afternoon

[howkickassiam]

It was earlier this month. I didn't mean to get plastered and post on the network about it but I couldn't hold it in anymore.

[inquiryguqin]

Are you going to be all right?

I don't what I could do to help, but if you like, we can get together for a cup of iced coffee.

[howkickassiam]

I'll be fine. You know. Not much choice otherwise.

Having some coffee would be nice, though. Maybe tomorrow? After the party and all.

[inquiryguqin]

Sure, of course. Certainly.

I'll join you tomorrow after the party.