poor decisions this way come

[temptationaccomplished]

[posted to the network late-late-night/in the wee hours of the morning, during that ungodly gray graveyard time stalked by gamers, drunks, lurking demons, and insomniacs. Obviously, of course to anyone who has ever talked to him, Mr. Fell is not of the first category. At least not of the "technological" sort of game. Maybe a hand of poker or two.]


I think, given how we are all caught up in the abrupt and fantastical nature of the situation we find outselves in--in the research and the understanding and the revelations--I believe, at least, that we should perhaps pause to reflect that:

Regardless of what these visions may mean, or may entail,--regardless of what they may emply (and if they are even at ALL credible)--right now they need no bearing on our lives. Well, that isn't to say we cannot take comfort in knowing there are others experiencing the same phenomna phenomina experie THING, but our pasts are not our present, even if they
have hitherto been unknown to us. Pasts may shape us, of course, yes may help inform our character and way of life, but they do not define us. No, we are beings of the present, adaptive and ever-evolving! And however fascinating these other existences may be, they do not need to overwhelm us.

We should focus on understanding the now, and better understanding our position in all this Stuff. I think.

Comments

[message incoming at around 7am]

[hardtoignore]

What time zone are you in? Or did you wake up in the middle of a fever dream to post this?

Fairly soon after

[temptationaccomplished]

I sincerely enjoy how you thought I was ever asleep in the first place.

[hardtoignore]

Touche my dude.

So you really don't think there's anything to this whole "memories are the past" bull that the Bureau is trying to feed us? Or do you just think it doesn't matter because we're not that anymore?

text, around 0630;

[traceofeffort]

That may be true, but I don't think this happened for no reason, either. And we can learn things from our past that can make our present run more smoothly.

...and beyond that, personally I'm overwhelmed already, so your recommendation is greatly appreciated but a bit too late to save me. So I may as well just dive into the deep end, right?

Shortly after

[temptationaccomplished]

And what reason might that be? I'm sorry to say I don't see a good reason in causing us this confusion and upheaval when we have lives. Here. And piecing together a past we dont remember is rather like making conjecture in a whodunnit novel based on the teaser summary alone.

Is that the way to go, dear girl? In for a penny, in for a pound, throw ourselves into the madness pell mell and risk losing ourselves a little? I rather miss stability. Normalcy.

[traceofeffort]

If I knew the reason, I wouldn't be sitting around, I'd be doing more research. I'm as in the dark as you, I think. But it feels wrong to sit around and wait for answers. And it's not like it's going to bother me any less, not knowing. I'd say "stability is overrated," but it's more like... I didn't really have that to lose. My life is crazy half the time anyway, what's a little more?

[neverjedi]

...have you been drinking?

[temptationaccomplished]

Hardly counts. It's not even good wine. And anyway, I was hoping to sleep.

[neverjedi]

I think it counts more if it's bad wine.

SLeep's hard. Memories following you into dreams?

[rabbitfeather]

you good, man?

[temptationaccomplished]

Absolutely tip top, tickety-boo.

Message shortly after this was posted.

[darkforcerising]

Are you still awake because you don't want to dream of your memory again?

[temptationaccomplished]

Oh no, but that is an abslutely stupendious idea.
No, rather, I'm awake because I have been thinking about it and I suppose the whole thing has just been wearing on me.

[darkforcerising]

You know what could help with that? A support group.

Responded to in the morning

[ashenscipher]

I think that's a good approach. I keep swinging between curiosity about my memory and concern about the Bureau.

[temptationaccomplished]

The Bureau are a matter of the present, yes. Our past, whatever it was, is of secondary concern to understanding our current predicament.

[ashenscipher]

That is if they are actual memories of a past, yes? And not some result of the Bureau's doing?

immediate response; text;

[howkickassiam]

Y'all going to post evidence you've been drinking, y'all need to share.

[temptationaccomplished]

My my, Mr. York, how awfully forward.

[howkickassiam]

Hey, I didn't say we had to share it in bed or anything.

[thehellisbucky]

Good point. But I still have a huge big BUT about all of this.

[temptationaccomplished]

I'm sure we all do, to be frank.
Possibly even the same one.

let's say 3 AM, the dark hour of the soul.

[darkenedmoon]

I think the word you want is 'phenomenon', darling. I cannot, however, say I'm certain that I am enjoying this, comfort in others or not.

I meant to tag you back ages ago T_T

[temptationaccomplished]

ah yes, that's the one. And there are some disturbances etc. that no amount of comfort manages to override.

it's okay if I had a dollar for every day I've been slow lately I'd be rich.

[darkenedmoon]

Indeed. I feel that I will be in a mire of discomfort for quite some time. This bodes ill. Do you not think so?