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[missingache]

[First time posting since Roxas never really had anything to talk about. Now, though? He's been thinking on something a few days.]

So these "memories" we have. They can be kind of confusing without any real context. Nothing to tie it to a different one. But some of them have similarities.

And then you have one that just makes no sense at all but kind of explains the others.

If these really were past lives or something, then I think I may have joined a cult or something.

Don't know how to feel about that. Anyone having anything similar happen?

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[temptationaccomplished]

A cult? What makes you say that?

[missingache]

Black coats being the uniform kind of makes it seem like a cult.

[temptationaccomplished]

Yes, I suppose that does seem like cult appropriate attire.
Do you have any idea what kind of cult?

[missingache]

No, I didn't get that many details.
Just that it was called something like organization thirteen.

The boss looked like some super tanned California bodybuilder with silver colored hair.

[ashenscipher]

A cult?! Why do you say that?

[missingache]

Black coats, weird name, leader who is supper fit, tanned, and has a super creepy smile... and I was wearing the same black coat in my other memory, too.

[ashenscipher]

Did this leader say anything to you?

[missingache]

He told me "You seek answers".

Don't know to what, but after that he gave me my name.

Which is weird because I'm pretty sure my mom gave me my name.

[ashenscipher]

My name was the same in my memories too!

I wonder if that is something similar for all of us.

[missingache]

It would be kind of weird if you had a different name now compared to in your memories...

I'd be confused a lot. Which name is the real one?

[ashenscipher]

But isn't that how reincarnation is supposed to work? That you are a different person completely in a past life? Wouldn't our names be different then, too?

[missingache]

Generally, yes. Unless we're in one of those reincarnation stories where we are the same person over and over again.

[ashenscipher]

In light of everything that we know, that is definitely a possibility.

[missingache]

I guess Roxas isn't a bad name.

But Bitterblue seems really specific.

[ashenscipher]

My mere liked the sound the letters made. She was born in Tunisia. The name sounded exotic to her.

... But I guess I don't know how I get that name in my memories.

[missingache]

Maybe the same way?

Maybe your mom in your memories is your mom now.

[ashenscipher]

No. Ma mere is back in France. And she does not look the same as my mother in my memories does. They also have different names.

In my memories, my mother's name is Princess Ashen of Lienid. Here, now, ma mere's name is Syrine. And she is not a princess.

[missingache]

I see... I don't know my mom's name from my memories. It's not the same as my mom's here.

[bearshermark]

Yeah. It wasn't a cult, but it seems like I was some sort of criminal.

It's weird to think about, right? How we could have been those sort of people.

[missingache]

I can't see you as a criminal... but then again, I can't see myself as someone dumb enough to join a cult.

These "memories" are weird.

[bearshermark]

Yeah, but those people aren't us now, at least.

I do wonder what led us to lead those sort of lives, though.

[missingache]

I don't know.

I hate not knowing.

[bearshermark]

Yeah. Hopefully these memories let us see enough to understand a little better.

[missingache]

But when? It's taking so long.

[bearshermark]

Who knows? I've been getting a memory every week now, seems like. I wonder if we'll recover all of our previous life's memories at some point.

[missingache]

I wonder if mine will pick up in speed. Getting them so rarely makes me feel kinda left behind.

[bearshermark]

I dunno what a normal rate is or anything, but it does feel fast. They definitely don't seem to be going in an easy order to follow for me, so I'm not sure I understand anything really.

[missingache]

Have you been keeping a diary? I write all of mine down.

[bearshermark]

No, but I guess that's probably a good idea.

[missingache]

It helps keep track of when and what triggered them.

[bearshermark]

I usually get mine when I'm asleep. And usually on the weekends, now that I think about it. But I could definitely use a way to try to keep the events in them straight.

[missingache]

Oh

I guess I should sleep more.

[bearshermark]

Sleep is usually good, yeah.

You okay?

[missingache]

I'll be fine.

Just staying up to write.