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[darkforcerising]

So... in my memories, I go from being a slave to being rescued by a cult that really doesn't want me... They are like the upper-class Free Masons of the Victorian era but with superpowers, and I'm the street trash they have to walk through, holding their noses.

Guys, I'm starting to think my memories don't have a 'fun' or 'happy' setting...

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[darkforcerising]

I can't tell if you're saying you enjoy your memories of hurting people, here in this life.

Or if in the memories that's what you're feeling.

[hardtoignore]

Oh, it’s in the memories. I’m a pretty gleeful guy in lots of them from what I can tell. Very easily entertained, but it seems like hurting teenagers is my favorite pastime.

Guess my other self is more like the people you’re angry at right now, huh?

[darkforcerising]

I mean, the slavers, ya. They hurt people.

But that's good that you can separate your memories from yourself here, you know?

[hardtoignore]

Did they laugh while doing it?

I dunno, I’m starting to think that maybe the old me had some good things going for him. Never let anything linger in his mind for long. Always did what he wanted. Kinda sounds nice.

[darkforcerising]

They're slavers, of course they did.

You could have all that without the hurting other people, you know.

[hardtoignore]

Nahhh I think too circular to be quite like that.

[darkforcerising]

What do you mean?

[hardtoignore]

I mean I'm not the kind of person who can put things out of my head... just ignore what I've said or done to others. It always circles back.

[darkforcerising]

When you put it that way, ya, that's probably a good thing.

[hardtoignore]

Probably. Maybe. Idk

What use has being good done anyone lately? I wonder.

[darkforcerising]

You know I can feel what other people feel right?

So I can feel when people hate me just because I don't have a right arm.

But I can feel when people don't hate me just because I don't have a right arm.

I appreciate people who aren't awful about my arm. Even when they never say anything.

[hardtoignore]

People... hate you for your arm? That's beyond dumb.

I don't think I quite get what you're saying, though. I mean, sure, you got an inside view of peoples' heads but what does it matter what they do or don't say? People are always gonna be shit in their own minds.

[darkforcerising]

Some people are prejudiced against disabilities.

Prejudices are learned. Everyone learns them because we don't live in a perfect society. Overcoming prejudice is a personal choice that people actively make and have to work at.

The people who aren't prejudiced against me for my disability have made a conscious choice to not be assholes. At least about that. They don't know I know that about them, but I still appreciate that they've made that choice. They've done something good and it helps me.