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I haven't gotten a new memory in awhile.

It used to be practically every weekend, but it's been over a month, now. I wonder if something's changed.

Guess I shouldn't complain though. It's been easier to focus on school and pretend I'm normal. It almost even feels like it, sometimes. After that whole invasion thing, I'm kinda glad for it. That was insane. Even though I was there the whole time, I still can't believe that happened, sometimes.

This whole summer was like a fever dream. I wish it had been.

All this to say: I hope everyone's doing okay.

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that's not normal, right? that whole invasion thing? like this isn't the sort of thing you guys get up to on weekends and just for funsies, is it, or should i get ready for this to be like a monthly thing?

No, that's definitely not a normal thing. As far as I know anyway. I'll be happy if it never happens again.

How have you been?

eh, around. went and visited the rents a bit after that crazy week, took my neighbor trick-or-treating. not much

i haven't had any more memories since that one. do we all tend to get them around the same time, like we get sync'd up or something? get all testy around a certain time of month when the memories start rolling in?

No, I don't think it's like that at all. I haven't really asked, but I know there are people that got them a lot more slowly than me. It was weirdly consistent for awhile though, and kinda exhausting. Glad it's slowed down. So idk, but I'm sure you'll get another memory at some point.

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Heh. Haven't remembered a damn thing since the first one. If it really was a memory. Still ain't convinced.

I think that's normal. Everyone's memories come at different times, I think. They really can be weird.

Doesn't make any damn sense to me. Especially since I'm getting yanked around because of one damn thing I might have just dreamed, and it's getting me into all this stupid stuff..

I wish I could say it gets less weird, but that's not true. If there's anything you think would help though, I'll do my best to.

Got me. Well, maybe. What was getting the memories like? Any warning?

Most of them came to me as dreams. There was only one that happened while I was out. There definitely wasn't really a warning. One moment I was snapping my fingers and the next, I watched a memory of someone doing the same thing to conjure a flame.

But no actual flame, right?!

[For all that Jecht's been reassured, the fear of something suddenly happening while he's in public, or worse, in the middle of a game, still clawed at him.]

[How to put this]

Not from the memory, no.

Lemme try again here.

You didn't actually set anything on fire, like right in front of a bunch of people, by accident. Right?

Nope. No damage, and no one was injured.

But I did find out that I can. Not sure anyone really saw though. It was just a small thing, like a lighter and didn't last long cause I sort of freaked out a little and it disappeared. Could have been a hallucination for anyone that did see. But I waited til I got home to try it again.

Good. Dunno if I'm gonna have any tricks like that show up, but so long as I'm not setting the other team on fire it oughtta be okay.

Yeah no, it seems like these sorts of things take a lot of practice and concentration to be effective, so I think you'll probably be good.

That's good to hear! Last thing I need is this screwing up my comeback!

Comeback? From what?

Had a bit of a slump. But now I'm back on the field and I'm gonna show everyone not to count the Great Jecht outta football yet!

Oh, well good luck then.

Midterms have been a pain. And things at home have been weird for me. Thank someone for Cheddar.

Are you okay? You know you can come over anytime, if you want.

It has been a while... Maybe Phil and Kris would be okay with it.

[There's a moment before he texts again.]

I'm not gonna be throwing a wrench in any plans, am I?

Of course not. Not doing anything til Thanksgiving. And even then, I'm sure Mom would love to have you if you weren't already stuffed.

If you’re sure, then yeah, I’ll head over in a min.

Oh dude, I should bring over some leftover injera if you wanna hang after lunch on thankagiving. Phil said he was gonna make a ton!

Okay great.

But yeah, for sure if you've got a lot of leftovers.

I can't say I've remembered anything new for awhile either. I've been busy, of course, but that's never really stopped such things before.

I'm hardly one to dwell on dark things, but there's something about that that has me a bit uneasy. I should be grateful for the relative quiet after all that awful business, but it feels almost... out of place, you know?

Yeah, after all the weirdness and that whole invasion thing... Normal seems a bit weird, suddenly.

And isn't that irony for you? We've become so used to having lives nearly as adventurous as those of our past selves that our ordinary lives seem strange by comparison. I wonder if that trend will continue?

I dunno. I don't even know if I hope for that or not. There's definitely a part of me that wants that adventure, even if it's dangerous, but... I'd also just like to get through college at least like a normal person, you know?

There is something very tempting about it, despite the danger. An epic quest, monsters and magic, and a collection of fabulous companions to face them with... But even a consummate performer like myself enjoys being able to return to reality after the show is over.

Likely we'll need to find some sort of balance between our dramatic pasts and our potential futures. Though that may be easier said than done.

I get that. I'm kinda glad she slowed down. I miss it a little, though. It's like watching a TV show, except it's me in there, and I'm yelling at myself through the screen and getting really invested in the plot? I wish she'd give me a new season. Not all at once again, though.

I've been fine. Busy, tired, but that's just kinda how it goes. Definitely not missing all the crazy.

Yeah no, definitely don't miss all that. It's just a little weird to think about sometimes when our lives have changed so much.

Hope it's been a good kind of busy for you.

Mm. A year ago, I just played the guitar and sat around being unsatisfied with myself. And now...

Well. I'm still kinda unsatisfied with myself. But I'm growing. And I think, someday, I'll understand what my other self is trying to tell me. We'll get there, all of us. I'm sure of it.

I can't say it was a good busy, I don't think, but I'm working on it. I'm... better. Not good, but better than I was. Sorry if that's not exactly reassuring.

No problem, I'm glad you're honest with me.

Funny that I didn't actually know you a year ago. Feels like it's been longer than it has.

But I think you've definitely come a long way since then. It seems like your passion for music was rekindled and you started to put yourself out there and even put on an amazing show! Every time I think about that, I still can't believe you're really dating me.

I know you've probably got a lot to compare yourself to and live up to, but from where I'm at, you're really talented and you've got a bunch of fans that think so, too. So, I think you're doing great.

Dimension hopping and having thoughts from other selves stuffed into our heads can do that, I think. Not. That I know that from her. Ugh, I played myself! [A pause, as Lisa groans and thunks her head into her desk. Just once, she only played herself a little.]

I appreciate that, Elliott. I do. It's strange - yeah, I'm working hard to be a big deal, and my heart is in it again, but I'm doing it because she was a big deal, and I don't want to lose to myself. It's hard to separate those! But I'm trying. It helps that Roselia had no need for an acoustic guitar. Or a rhythm guitar. Or someone to sing in English. Have I mentioned I really wish I had a copy of Anfang to show off how good they were?

But hey. Just because I'm a tryhard doesn't make you any less awesome, even if I'm a little biased. I'm glad I have you to fall back on when I do something dumb. Or when I'm not doing something dumb and just need someone I can be me around. It's so exhausting to be on all the time, you know? And neither of us need memories or powers or anything else for that. Just you and me.

Yeah, I get that. I'm glad you're comfortable around me. It's always great just hanging out with you, so anytime.

Yeay for normalcy.

Yeah. I hope things have gotten a little better for you, too.

That would be a negative. The "heroes" of my story turn out to be something of a cult and they don't want me because I care about a person stuck in slavery and that somehow makes me dangerous so...

Are these secondhand abandonment issues? Or first? I mean, they are memories but when they hit, it's like you're reliving them again...

I don't know.

God, I'm sorry. That sounds really rough. I'd hoped you would have some kind of good memories in there somewhere at least, even if you weren't catching a break.

I mean... I'm not dead?

It'll hit you when you least expect it and then you'll wish you'd never been born. [or is that him]

Anything next happening that you know of? Sentient blobs? Samurai from other dimensions? Dinosaurs? I'd like not to be surprised.

I'm not a prophet, so I dunno. It's just been normal, lately. Peaceful. Easier for you too, probably.

Not really. Waiting is the hardest part. Not knowing. But at least I'm prepared...

How can you be prepared for unknown things?

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