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[scotch_egg]

[when he appears he looks more like an unmade bed than usual. His eyes are red rimmed and bloodshot. There's an obvious hotel room behind him and more than one empty bottle of something someone with a heart condition really shouldn't be drinking-- and it shows]

Congratulations,

You win. You've got it all. Magic, reincarnation, astral fucking projection for all I know. You don't really belong in this normal world, you're not just another bloody sheep, you're something better. Something more.

Good for you and I hope it doesn't blow up in your bloody face.

'Bye.

[and he hangs up. Or at least covers the phone with his hand which is the same thing]

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[bearshermark]

...You are too, you know.

[scotch_egg]

[ugh this fucking kid]

Go to hell.

[bearshermark]

[Apparently he's been there once already- or something like it anyway]

What is it that you hate about this so much?

[scotch_egg]

If you can't see it then you never bloody will.

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[serpentinthegarden]

Alec what the Hell... what the actual Hell!?

[ Usually he could be more eloquent than that but not upon getting a look at this scene. ]

Where are you? I'm coming to get you right now.

[bearshermark]

[He can't, only gets a vague sense that like Clarence, the man's memories may have been less than pleasant]

I'm sorry.

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[scotch_egg]

M'fine.

[bugger off and go be happy. Leave him alone]

[scotch_egg]

Sod off. I don't need your fucking sympathy.

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[serpentinthegarden]

YOU are not fine! NONE of THIS is FINE!

Now stop being an ass and tell me where you are! It looks like a dive!

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[scotch_egg]

Mmf. [he's not going to tell you. There's a reason he's here after all. So sod off]

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[serpentinthegarden]

Alec! Talk to me... Are you there with some one?

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[scotch_egg]

Yeah. [no]

[who the hell would he even be here with?]

[he doesn't have the money for one thing]

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[serpentinthegarden]

[ A hooker? I mean... some of them were more reasonably priced than others.

Still Anthony rubbed his hands over his face trying to muster a sense of patience he did not have. ]

What ever this is about the drinkings not going to help it... I've tried that. You just pass out and have more memories. Let me bring you to my place. We can have breakfast and just... glare at the walls.

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[scotch_egg]

[he shudders at the thought of another one of those. But it's inevitable isn't it? Whether he drinks or not.]

D'n worry so much. [he rests his cheek on his arm so at least Anthony can see the room. Or the ceiling. There's not much to see except a crack]

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[temptationaccomplished]

Crowley! Pick up this phone again and let's talk about this!

...Please.

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[serpentinthegarden]

I can't. Not. Worry.

[ Each word was punctuated with barely restrained anger. ]

What about that don't you understand? You're my Cousin, you are clearly out of your mind with... something, at least tell me what it is! Did you have another memory? Do you hate me for that business with Fell? What is it?!

[bearshermark]

[After a moment spent weighing his options, Elliott decides that they've never gotten on, and it doesn't seem like they're about to start, so he'd likely only wind up antagonizing him further if he insisted]

Okay. I hope you feel better.

[scotch_egg]

[now you get to feel superior. Well done. He slides the phone into the bin]

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[scotch_egg]

Ughhhhhhh [why? Why couldn't he just-- let it go? It didn't matter.]

'Snothing. Just felt like it. [he sighed heavily] 'Be back soon.

[he wouldn't]

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[scotch_egg]

Alec. [he doesn't want to hear him say that name any more. Easier to be called Alec since they're going to be family anyway. He doesn't doubt that. Everything is going to be hell for a while but then it will settle and they'll be happy until whatever is going on fucks them up again. But what can he do to stop it? Not a damn thing.]

[darkenedmoon]

[She's not going to speak to most of that. Just ignore and sally on forth. Mostly because she didn't want to think about what it all meant--and if she thought too much about it, Yotsuyu might join him at the bottom of a bottle. It's too much. Even this life was too much, for all she tried to ignore it.]

As if with even all the supposed power and glory, the possibility isn't there to be mutton anyway. [Dry as dry.] You damn well know and so do I, that even if one imagines themselves to be atop the world, there's still a chance that there's a ticking time bomb just waiting to explode.

Where are you now? [Yotsuyu's not inclined to give pity, especially where it's not wanted, but someone she considers a peer doing something stupid? Well. She can't allow that.]

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[serpentinthegarden]

[ Because you do matter you idiot! You matter so much Anthony decides to cross engine that med alert bracelet he was given, call the company and see if he were silly enough to keep that promise to hold it in his back pocket. He needed a location! ]

Just felt like it... listen to yourself! You can't do things like this. You look terrible!

Now stop being an idiot and tell me where you are.

[temptationaccomplished]

[That more than anything else tells him the weight of the mistakes made. Aziraphale swallows around a tightening in his throat and nods, repeating the name gently and with the utmost care.]

Alec.

[scotch_egg]

[no. that's even worse]

Don't you dare cry, Fell. [he can hear it.]

[scotch_egg]

Ughh. [it's ridiculous. He doesn't even believe it really. It's true but it feels so meaningless. Hopeless. Like beating himself against a brick wall. He has no weapons, no tools, no anything.]

I'm away. Taking a holiday.

Haven't you ever wanted to disappear? [that sounded more morbid than he'd intended]