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[traceofeffort]

[Lisa looks a little frustrated today... but she's holding her bright red bass today rather than her acoustic guitar, which is a fairly substantial change. As she talks she's idly plucking the strings, but that sure sounds kinda like LOUDER at some percentage of its normal speed...]

Man, I just feel so restless here lately. Not that I don't enjoy talking to everyone! I do, a lot! But... I didn't think I'd feel so unfulfilled on my summer break. I kinda wanna play a show, actually. Not just at a bar or something, wherever I can sneak in, but... a real show. Find an open spot at a music house or something and play a real live show, like the other me did. Sure, there's only the one of me, and I don't know how many fans I'd pull in, but- [She takes a breath, and lets it out slowly.] I want more than being the entertainment when someone wants to go do something else, y'know? I want to be the show. The main event, the attraction, the headline act! I'm a real musician and I wanna play like it!

[She flushes moderately; some on the network may recognize that she's been building up to this for a bit, and it's been on advice from people here.]

A-anyway! That's... yeah. Maybe for my birthday or something? Two weeks might be a little tight to arrange a space, practice a set, and do tickets or whatever, but if it doesn't work out, I'll find a way. One way or another I'm gonna play a set for my birthday, though. Count on it!

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[traceofeffort]

This is me trying to fix my whole... self-image thing. I'm not sure it's working, but that might just mean I'm trying hard enough.

I don't really... y'know, I wasn't thinking that hard about it? I'm just glad I muddled through six months of all this. [She grins back at him.] I'd take a card, though. E-mail and social media are all well and good, but there's something real about a card or a letter. Even if that kinda stuff is late, it lets you know someone thought you were important enough to give you a thing every time you look at it. Or maybe I'm just being sentimental again, I dunno.

[not_as_i_do]

I think I can manage a card, yes. [he flashes her a warm smile] And maybe a surprise or two.

Six months, eh? I wasn't aware it had been so long for you. Though, I guess if you've managed to remember everything you've told me, it does make sense.

[traceofeffort]

A surprise, eh? How dangerous.

Mm, I was in the same class, if you will, as Elliott, Mr. Fell, and a couple of the others. The other me's shared a lot of herself since then. Not that I mind it! Clearly it's helping me too, yeah?

[not_as_i_do]

I like to think life needs a little risk once in a while.

I'm glad she's helping you. Gives me a little hope that eventually the other me might settle down and do the same.

[traceofeffort]

I can handle a little low-impact risk, I think. I'll look forward to it!

[Her grin turns warmer.] I know not everyone agrees with me, but I think our other selves are there to prop us up. And I agree - hopefully yours starts sending more sensible stuff instead of the nasty, confusing bits.

[not_as_i_do]

It's a nice way to think of it. And for what it's worth, Lisa, it helps. It truly does. So ... thank you for sharing it with me.

[traceofeffort]

Hey, anytime. If my refusing to stop hoping can help someone, I'll be all over it.