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[traceofeffort]

[Lisa looks a little frustrated today... but she's holding her bright red bass today rather than her acoustic guitar, which is a fairly substantial change. As she talks she's idly plucking the strings, but that sure sounds kinda like LOUDER at some percentage of its normal speed...]

Man, I just feel so restless here lately. Not that I don't enjoy talking to everyone! I do, a lot! But... I didn't think I'd feel so unfulfilled on my summer break. I kinda wanna play a show, actually. Not just at a bar or something, wherever I can sneak in, but... a real show. Find an open spot at a music house or something and play a real live show, like the other me did. Sure, there's only the one of me, and I don't know how many fans I'd pull in, but- [She takes a breath, and lets it out slowly.] I want more than being the entertainment when someone wants to go do something else, y'know? I want to be the show. The main event, the attraction, the headline act! I'm a real musician and I wanna play like it!

[She flushes moderately; some on the network may recognize that she's been building up to this for a bit, and it's been on advice from people here.]

A-anyway! That's... yeah. Maybe for my birthday or something? Two weeks might be a little tight to arrange a space, practice a set, and do tickets or whatever, but if it doesn't work out, I'll find a way. One way or another I'm gonna play a set for my birthday, though. Count on it!

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[not_as_i_do]

That's the spirit, Lisa.

[he grins, surprisingly proud of her. was it one of those memories he had? of ... someone named Ainsley that he hadn't seen yet? he wasn't sure. but he knows he truly is happy for her]

Any particular birthday wishes? Let me at least send you a card...

[traceofeffort]

This is me trying to fix my whole... self-image thing. I'm not sure it's working, but that might just mean I'm trying hard enough.

I don't really... y'know, I wasn't thinking that hard about it? I'm just glad I muddled through six months of all this. [She grins back at him.] I'd take a card, though. E-mail and social media are all well and good, but there's something real about a card or a letter. Even if that kinda stuff is late, it lets you know someone thought you were important enough to give you a thing every time you look at it. Or maybe I'm just being sentimental again, I dunno.

[not_as_i_do]

I think I can manage a card, yes. [he flashes her a warm smile] And maybe a surprise or two.

Six months, eh? I wasn't aware it had been so long for you. Though, I guess if you've managed to remember everything you've told me, it does make sense.

[traceofeffort]

A surprise, eh? How dangerous.

Mm, I was in the same class, if you will, as Elliott, Mr. Fell, and a couple of the others. The other me's shared a lot of herself since then. Not that I mind it! Clearly it's helping me too, yeah?

[not_as_i_do]

I like to think life needs a little risk once in a while.

I'm glad she's helping you. Gives me a little hope that eventually the other me might settle down and do the same.

[traceofeffort]

I can handle a little low-impact risk, I think. I'll look forward to it!

[Her grin turns warmer.] I know not everyone agrees with me, but I think our other selves are there to prop us up. And I agree - hopefully yours starts sending more sensible stuff instead of the nasty, confusing bits.

[not_as_i_do]

It's a nice way to think of it. And for what it's worth, Lisa, it helps. It truly does. So ... thank you for sharing it with me.

[traceofeffort]

Hey, anytime. If my refusing to stop hoping can help someone, I'll be all over it.