Oh stop being a melodramatic twit. It's not an evil source it's a bloody thoughtless and careless source. It's who you choose to be, yes. But I forgot, a demon is just something laid out for you. You can't decide how you want to act. All preordained with memories.

[he didn't want to be helped he wanted to be left alone, but he wouldn't tell Anthony that either. It would lead to too many questions]